Hi, everyone! My name is Clarissa Aubrey but you can call me Clars. I am not really an expressive type of a person, but through this blog, I will now finally able to express my feelings, thoughts and emotions.

So this is for the guy once I loved. I assumed that he love me for he showed me care and respect. But I was wrong, he just loves the fact that I was there when he needed someone to make him feel okay. I wanted to tell him how much I love him, but I was afraid that our feelings won’t come out mutual. Every time when I was with him, I saw how happy he was but not because of me. I saw how happy he was when he was looking for a girl he truly love. I was martyred that time to the point that I still want to stay on his side, even though he broke my heart into pieces. I know that he will leave me as soon as the girl came back to him, but still, I did everything I could do for he will stay being with me. He was not able to appreciate all the efforts I exerted to him, but there was I, still showing my affection towards him.

I am presently happy that I have proceeded onward with him since I become more happy. I am cheered that I would now be able to look in his eyes without feeling anything. And I can finally say that I’ve released myself from the torment he caused me.